Parenting Children

This weekend is a special one for our family, it is our twin’s fourth birthday. I don’t know how I got this far, I didn’t know how difficult or tumultuous it would be nor how unbelievably happy I am to have them as my children.
I will share with you an open letter to my children for their birthday:

Dear R & L,

Time flies even faster now that I am a Mom. It seems like weeks ago you were in my body, days ago you were in my arms drinking a bottle and minutes ago you were learning to walk. The past four years have been challenging, testing, difficult, loving, eye opening and so rewarding.

You have taught me so much, I thought this stay at home Mother thing would be a lot easier then it turned out to be. I have much more patience now, I am a better cook, cleaner and diaper changer. I am a better person because of you both. I am a better wife because of you and a better daughter because until I had you, I never fully realized what having children would do to our family.
It made it stronger.

You also may not know that I had some very dark days when I thought I couldn’t live anymore, days when nothing could make me get out of bed and go on.
It was then in the darkness, in my bed, I would hear your little voices saying your first words and calling for me.
That is what got me out of bed.

God must have known my pain was going to be so great, so very, very terrible, that I needed two babies at once to save me from the depths of my grief.
I may have gave you life, but you both saved my life.

It is so great seeing you become people with your own likes and dislikes, your own opinions and your own voice to let them be known.
You are both such individuals but you are almost the same person, and Daddy and I are so happy that you both have each other for all the firsts in life. You have each other to lean on and for security for when, in the not so distant future, you will be separated from us.

Sometimes you will test our boundaries, mother and child boundaries, and then you will come running back to the security of my grasp and right there you both have learned a lesson I wanted you to learn.

That no matter what, you can go away, even very far away from me but you will always be able to come back to me and I will be waiting for you both.
With open arms.

Happy fourth birthday
Love, Mommy

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